Sunday, December 20, 2009

Out of the Horse Latitudes…

Balls ...and into the Doldrums.

Don't you hate those days when you just feel blah? I'm having one. I don't feel ill or anything, just sort of floating along through life. It wasn't a bad day at all, and I got some things done, did a little laundry (washed my new T-shirt…it is the awesomesauce!), got caught up on correspondence...I wasn't bored.

But I missed seeing my Colts this weekend. What am I going to do when the season and the playoffs are over? I go through this every year. I'm really hoping that they make it to the Super Bowl, because if they're out early, I'm going to be really bummed. I wish they could play all year, although I suspect they might take a dim view of such a schedule. They probably need all of the off-season to recuperate. "Hey guys, Beth wants us to play all year! What do you say?" I'm guessing the answer would be no.

I also crapped out on doing the rest of my wrapping. I just need to get it done, because it's hanging over my head like some sick holiday version of Damocles' sword, all tarted up with red and green baubles and glitter...glitter that gets stuck to your skin and you don't realize it until you look in the mirror and see a piece stuck to the end of your nose and wonder why the fuck no one told you about it, because it had to be reflecting the light enough so that it looked like you had some sort of radioactive zit.

I was also frustrated by Rock Band yet again. I even practiced the guitar solo in a slower mode, and still couldn't make it all the way through. One way or another, "Green Grass and High Tides," you're goin' down. I'm going to make you my bitch. I will conquer you, and when I do, I'm going to kick you when you're down; when you're crying, I'm going to get all up in your face and taunt, "Cry, just CRY!" I'm going to dance on your grave, and then I'm going to stand arms akimbo over it and laugh triumphantly as I imagine your rotting corpse beneath my feet.

You will pay, "Green Grass and High Tides." You will pay dearly.

Gee, I guess I'm in a bit of a mood, aren't I?

Never fear. I am able to put things in perspective and realize that compared to the problems that people have all over the world, I am a very fortunate person. When I think about all the pain and misery experienced by millions, I understand that my problems and frustrations don't amount to a hill of beans. Of course, when I think about all the pain and misery going on in the world, it makes me all the more frustrated at seeing the political idiocy going on here and elsewhere. The hatred, the lack of compassion, the inequality, the fear, the hunger, the death and disease. Putting people last because you're worried about whether or not you're going to get reelected, pandering to the people you think will most help you in your climb, or who will provide the biggest bankroll.

Health care3 I've grown so disillusioned, especially with this health care debate. Something that should have been a common goal for everyone because we care about human beings became a political hockey puck, and the brutal checking got ugly. For millions of Americans, this is not a game; I am appalled that it ended up as politics as usual. Religion ended up as part of the debate, with some people actually praying that this would be defeated, and yeah, I'm talking to you, Bachmann, you sick bitch. Praying for millions to continue to not receive the health care they need? Praying for people to die because they can't afford treatment? Praying for people to live in agony because their insurance doesn't cover the prescription drugs that give them relief? Praying for people to lose their homes because their heart attack and rehabilitation left them with thousands in medical bills?

That is fucked. And yeah, I'm pissed. I'm pissed that one of the most prosperous nations on earth is apparently so goddamn cheap that we're willing to let people die just so that we can hang on to a little more of our filthy lucre. I'm pissed that we're stuck in two wars, one completely unjustified, because our previous administration was hell-bent on some kind of holy war. In this time of celebration, love, and compassion, I'm pissed that we, as a nation, just don't seem to care about what happens to those who are less fortunate than ourselves. I believe this bill will pass, but it is a weak sister compared to what could have been. So if I don't seem to be properly in the Christmas spirit, I do have a reason behind my scrooge-itude.

I guess the good news is that I'm not totally in the doldrums. I've still got some fiyah in me.


  1. Someone has a bit of an edge today, should I be looking for ground glass in my dinner, disguised as crushed pecans? I can only hope that you meat mallet allowed you to get some aggression out :o)

  2. I like Ken's reactions !!! Hope you feel better now that you have got all that of your chest !! Keep smiling LOL
    Sybil x

  3. Righteous fiyah, if you ask me!

  4. I'm been on both sides of the HealthCare debate; years without insurance and yet recieved Statr and Local Healthcare which was topnotch and years with healthcare, again, topnotch. I confess as to not being the brightest crayon in the box when it comes to politices. I do believe something must be done, but I'm not sure if the plan offered is the best way to go.
    And Beth, I am really missing your smile :)

  5. I dig the "balls" cartoon! I don't dig the way our country is behaving in regard to health care!

  6. I had an email from DB saying that he couldn't comment here, so here is his comment. And thank you, my friend:

    I say you sure show your doldrums in a feisty manner.

    You are right to be outraged by this stupid fight over national health care, something that should have been part of this country years ago. "Let 'm die. If they're sick and poor they're just a drain on the economy. So let 'em die so we can preserve our 'way of life because it's perfect."

    I'm also sick of those creeps who are praying and encouraging their congregations to pray for Obama's failure, just because he's black, or liberal or that he won the election. I wonder how those fools will handle the remorse if and when they ever wake up.

    But remember Beth, 'Tis the season to be jolly.


  7. Uh, I think that you are short an adjustified war, Beth...

    I am able to put things in perspective and realize that compared to the problems that people have all over the world, I am a very fortunate person. When I think about all the pain and misery experienced by millions, I understand that my problems and frustrations don't amount to a hill of beans.

    I may have to use that soon. Trying to minimalize your discomfort because it may not seem as great as someone's else, only works for so long. How things are registered in regards to 'agony and discomfort' still is a factor for each individual to make. While the consequence isn't the same, it is difficult to grade THAT MOMENT, when something becomes too much for someone to handle.

    Anywho, 'clink', that's my nickle to go with my opinion!!

  8. I hate it when I get in moods like that. I usually just take a nice snooze and hope I will sleep it off.

  9. What kills me is how the decriers of "big government" never seem to have one negative thing to say about our giant defense budget, or even acknowledge the huge amount of fraud and waste therein. When it comes to this area of spending, they seem to think big government is magically efficient simply by dint of patriotic fervor.
    I've been on both private insurance and now on Medicare. With one I was incessantly on the phone arguing to get claims paid; the other has been prompt and never given me the slightest problem. Guess which is which?

  10. Beth, I wish we didn't have to have these moods(I'm not going to get into the HC Bill, I don't want to write a dissertation right now). I'm famous for moods this time of year. Stan can attest to that. Maybe we need them so we can keep perspective? Take some of that "fiyah" and burn the edges off the doldrums. I'm with DB, be jolly if you can.

  11. This is going to cost us out the Kazoo for health care. Our premiums will go through the roof along with our income taxes and other fees and fines while we wait for another three years for nothing. We are not going to realize any improvement in anything from this illegal action. I say it is time to claim sovereignty as States and push back. Several Senators sold their mortal souls for some porridge, and got sweet deals for their states only. How is this legal? This is out and out bribery.
    Besides that, it is all illegal and unconstitutional. We should not even be considering health care and cap and trade legislation. If any government entity says we can afford this, a red flag should immediately pop up in your brain. They have been bought and paid for too. This whole process has been an outrage from the beginning. Believe me, these mopes to whom we write and call are not listening. They have purposely blocked all their avenues of communication so they won't have to listen to those who they were elected to represent. The government has never done one thing successfully except raise and collect more taxes.

    To President Obama and all 535 voting members of the Legislature,

    It is now official you are ALL corrupt morons:

    The U.S. Post Service was established in 1775 You have had 234 years to get it right and it is broke.
    Social Security was established in 1935. You have had 74 years to get it right and it is broke.
    Fannie Mae was established in 1938. You have had 71 years to get it right and it is broke.
    War on Poverty started in 1964. You have had 45 years to get it right; $1 trillion of our money is confiscated each year and transferred to "the poor" and they only want more.
    Medicare and Medicaid were established in 1965. You have had 44 years to get it right and they are broke.
    Freddie Mac was established in 1970. You have had 39 years to get it right and it is broke.
    The Department of Energy was created in 1977 to lessen our dependence on foreign oil. It has ballooned to 16,000 employees with a budget of $24 billion a year and we import more oil than ever before. You had 32 years to get it right and it is an abysmal failure.

    You have FAILED in every "government service" you have shoved down our throats while overspending our tax dollars AND YOU WANT AMERICANS TO BELIEVE YOU CAN BE TRUSTED WITH A GOVERNMENT-RUN HEALTH CARE SYSTEM??

  12. Hey, Oklahoma City Anonymous Fucktard.

    Fuck you. It's Christmas, I've lost a good friend, and I am in no mood for your complete and utter fucktardedness. "The government has never done one thing successfully except raise and collect more taxes." Really? That's just so fucking retarded that I don't even want to mess with you other than to say FUCK YOU.

    If I really wanted to or had the energy to talk about all the things that the government does, I could do so, but you are so ridiculous that I'm not going to waste my time. You've bothered me before, and apparently you're still stalking me. You don't even have the balls to leave your name. I'm not sure why you have such a fascination with me when you so obviously disagree with everything I say and everything I stand for. I suggest that you move on and leave me the fuck alone. Go write your own blog and just fuck off.

    You have grated on my last nerve.


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